Post by The Doctor on Jan 9, 2011 10:17:56 GMT
Having difficulties shaking off this lurgy and feeling very run-down in general. Not helped by the thing that popped in my head about the thing the other week so I feel very restless when not at work and find it difficult to concentrate on just relaxing in the usual ways and then getting upset with myself because I'm not doing anything with my time off. The job itself is great and I like it and the people I work with, though I can't shake off the irrational fear that I'll be fired at any moment. There appears to be no risk of this actually happening, but it keeps going through my mind especially if it's a more quiet day.
One positive thing I have done is make an appointment with the bank tomorrow to open up a savings account. Perhaps it's only just getting into stable regular employment for the first time since 2007, perhaps it's because I was in a very highly paid job previously for 9 months, perhaps it's boredom but I seem to have lost my ability to budget and have been spending way beyond my means. Thus, I need an enforced mechanism (at least initially) to force myself into some measure of restraint until I get my head around budgeting properly again and saving up for things before I get myself into difficulties of my own making. I've been stressing myself out quite a lot of late by trying to save cash but spending it hand-over-fist anyway and not knowing why I'm doing it. It's hard to explain as it isn't rational.
-Ralph
One positive thing I have done is make an appointment with the bank tomorrow to open up a savings account. Perhaps it's only just getting into stable regular employment for the first time since 2007, perhaps it's because I was in a very highly paid job previously for 9 months, perhaps it's boredom but I seem to have lost my ability to budget and have been spending way beyond my means. Thus, I need an enforced mechanism (at least initially) to force myself into some measure of restraint until I get my head around budgeting properly again and saving up for things before I get myself into difficulties of my own making. I've been stressing myself out quite a lot of late by trying to save cash but spending it hand-over-fist anyway and not knowing why I'm doing it. It's hard to explain as it isn't rational.
-Ralph
